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I don't normally write super-personal entries in here, always afraid that someone I know from RL will find it, and in so doing, find me out. But I have to get some things off my chest. I think I use the internet, LJ, HP, SW, fanfic, as an escape from RL. I'm not sure why. My life, apart from having no money and a job I'm not really fond of, isn't really that bad. I have a nice home with a great roommate, I have my health, most everything is alright for me. So why the need to escape?
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Last night, my roommate's boyfriend, Juan, came home from drinking and tried to kill himself. He's an alcoholic, on probation for DUI. They broke up the first time b/c Juan cheated on Matt with one of his managers. When they got back together, Mat knew that he was unstable, he had been drinking (A LOT), but Juan said he had changed. And, I guess he has, sort of, but he's still going to break Matt in two when the inevitable happens. Matt's been talking about wedding rings and I've been agreeing, even though I think it's a big mistake.
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I don't know. I guess, I just need a place where I can be myself. Where I can talk to people that know me, but don't really. I know I have friends here, and that's comforting somehow. You guys love me even though we've never met, even though I don't know what you look like, even though you don't know my last name. I don't know...I just need some hugs.
Kisses, Kel
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Last night, my roommate's boyfriend, Juan, came home from drinking and tried to kill himself. He's an alcoholic, on probation for DUI. They broke up the first time b/c Juan cheated on Matt with one of his managers. When they got back together, Mat knew that he was unstable, he had been drinking (A LOT), but Juan said he had changed. And, I guess he has, sort of, but he's still going to break Matt in two when the inevitable happens. Matt's been talking about wedding rings and I've been agreeing, even though I think it's a big mistake.
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I don't know. I guess, I just need a place where I can be myself. Where I can talk to people that know me, but don't really. I know I have friends here, and that's comforting somehow. You guys love me even though we've never met, even though I don't know what you look like, even though you don't know my last name. I don't know...I just need some hugs.
Kisses, Kel
