Joke. Dork. Failure.

It was brought to my attention (last week) by abigail89 that I haven't been around the last month. SORRY.

First and foremost, I've been digesting my situation. I am okay most of the time. One of my friends' partner (a New Yorker who also happens to be a Corrections Officer) spoke really frankly to me about moving out sooner than I anticipated. She told me that I needed to be out of this house by Thanksgiving, because I needed to make new Christmas traditions. Since I was really struggling with the thought of spending Christmas here, that was something I really needed to hear. I'll be getting my storage unit next week, and sitting down with Alex, who's going to help me set my goals. Thank heaven for her.

Secondly, my mom and her friend Mary came to visit! We had a spectacular time. WE GOT TO SEE THE CRAWLER COMING DOWN THE HILL FROM PAD 39A GOING BACK TO THE VAB. I PROMISED JULIE PICTURES. I'll post them eventually. We hit Animal Kingdom and Epcot. It was so hot we really didn't get to do as much as I usually do with guests...but they had a great time, so I don't really care. Next time they come, I'll be in my new place!

Also went to Rochester for my goddaughter's second birthday. Had a great time, as well. It was nice just to be away and relax (even though a lot of the week wasn't really relaxing...).

Saw Shrek 4, Alice in Wonderland, and Toy Story 3. Fell asleep in the first two, bawled through the third. Oh, Andy.

thalialunacy is going to be here during Infinitus, so whether she wants to or not, she's taking me with her to meet the con folks, because I'm not missing the chance to hug abigail89 IRL.

IDK what else...I've been working a lot. Not working out a lot :(. I started a rewatch of The West Wing. OMGBBWHITEHOUSESTAFFERS.

My sisters will be here in July! \o/

SYTYCD...I'm finally caught up. I love that they got rid of the video wall. The lighting designer this year KILLS. I wasn't so sure about the All Stars. It does produce some great results...but we also don't have a lot of connection or awkward dances. I really don't have a favorite yet. The girls are so blah and the guys are so great. I got attached to Alex during Season 5, so I hope he continues to grow. And Kent is so fucking hilarious. I have a feeling he'll be a finalist, no matter how he does.

Okay, well, I'm working 27 hours this weekend, so I'll see you soon, bbs!

love meme


I hope I did this right...IDEK.

So, I'm having dinner with Matt and Mike tomorrow night. This will either be really great or a total disaster.

I've ridden 22 miles so far this week! Woo!

I just got off the phone with my mom. I had debated telling her about having to move. She'll be here on the First and I didn't want the news to be a downer for her trip. But, we were chatting on FB and I just wanted her love. So, I told her. And we talked for almost an hour. And I think I convinced her not to fly to Florida for the express purpose of twisting Matt's head off. (She actually asked if I wanted her and Mary not to come...totally preposterous. I NEED AN ADULT.)

It is what it is. She knows. I feel "better."

I've taken a melatonin and some nyquil...Will and Jack and Elizabeth will be seeing me off to bed.

So, I haven't been willing to talk about what's been upsetting me for a couple of months. But, it came to a head today and I have to get it out or I will make bad choices.

( In which I feel like Season Two Dan Rydell mixed with Kurt Hummel...tl;dr )

I'm going to bed now. I have to be at work early. I will be okay. It doesn't feel like it now, but I know I will.

starsfell and I are hanging out on Tuesday. I cannot wait.