Meh.

[centerspire]

Regardless of length, this will be tl;dr. Feel free to move along.


I don't know what's going on with me right now. Except that almost everything in my life is changing right now. And I think that is what's causing my malaise. I'm honestly to a point where it's not that I don't have any fucks to give, I have NEGATIVE fucks to give. Things I normally care about, passionately, I just can't bring myself to even...I can't even finish the sentence, that's how little I care.

Unfortunately, I think most of this started because I was on vacation for two weeks. I had an amazing time, and it's always great to be part of a family unit. I didn't have to care about anything while gone, and I didn't. Upon my return, I immediately got sick. Awesome. I'm sure it is plane crud. I went back to work for one day, then Julie had her surgery and became my couch troll! Almost 10 days later, I'm still trying to recover.

In this time, I have switched from 4 tens to 5 eights at work. Don't get me wrong, I see this as a huge positive for my life. I've never really adjusted to the 4 day week, and an eight hour shift is just easier. This also gives me a set schedule and weekends off. And I am excited. Really. Or, I will be. But I just didn't get much done this week and if I don't start feeling better, next week will be bleak as well.

Also, my friend and ex-, Florida Jen, is about to become California Jen. She's transferring to the new bar at Disneyland Hotel, and while I'm really happy for her, it's just one more change. But, I feel like I should be upset that she's leaving or something, but I'm just not.

Mom was supposed to come for the launch today, but she decided not to come. I thought she might come in August, but she said not until October or November. While it's for the best that she's not here now, I wish she was coming soon (especially because I want to go to BJ's and stock my pantry).

Shuttle launch today...LAST SHUTTLE LAUNCH...didn't go. Didn't even step outside to see if I could see it. I was at a vendor meetup, did get lots of swag. (Although, I did have fun with Jay and her boy harem as they passed back through Orlando.)

Harry Potter...don't care.

IDK.

I've been doing really well with putting on a happy front, but I think even that is making me tired.

I'm going to help Jen move a couple of things to Keith's new place tomorrow, then I'm pulling up the drawbridge until work on Monday. I haven't really had the time to stop and catch my breath. Hopefully, the rest and personal time will set me right and I'll be squeeing with everyone next week.

Going to watch Fanboys now so I can give it back to Jen to pack.

Comments

[blowdry.livejournal.com]

I love the term 'couch troll'. XD

Anyway, I hope you feel better in general soon. I know what you mean when you say you have negative fucks to give. I've had times like that.

[centerspire.livejournal.com]

Yes, and she was the perfect couch troll because she couldn't go anywhere.

Feeling better today. Thanks for the positive vibes. I feel like I will be on my feet by Monday. Instead of on my back like Julie!

[starsfell.livejournal.com]

Well even if you do have a case of the fuck-its I still love you (no homo). :( But if you think of anything I can do to help let me know.

[centerspire.livejournal.com]

Get better, fag.

Actually, I'm feeling a lot better today. I think I really just needed some time alone and doing nothing. I've literally done nothing but feed myself and watch x-men all day. Magic.

[awamiba.livejournal.com]

I have been having that mood for...umm...I can't think it's been so long. So I will send you positive thoughts even if you're feeling better already. More positive can't hurt, right?

[centerspire.livejournal.com]

Never enough positive vibes. But I am feeling better! We shall see how this work week goes.